Okay so I knew J from high school. He’s almost perfect, personality wise anyways. He’s funny, listens to what I have to say, sweet, offers to pay, and nerdy in a good way. I simply just enjoy spending time with him. However, appearance wise, isn’t stellar. He’s quite overweight, with bad acne. Is that shallow? Not really, you want to be attracted to the person you’re hooking up with.
Anyways, we did absolutely every date activity you can think of in one day. I came over, and we started off by playing video games, Call of Duty, which I was painfully average at. Then we drove around, got sushi, and then walked around downtown for a bit. We made fun of people on the street, made inside jokes, were laughing constantly. Joking about the sketchiness of downtown. It was very hot out. I jokingly picked a flower and gave him it (it died later in the day). We drove around and got ice cream , then went to the movies to see Pitch Perfect 2. It wasn’t bad. Not great, but not bad. We also held hands during that, ooh ;) After that, we chilled in his house with his weird ass roommate who I was very nice to, as he talked to me about his video game for like a half hour. Then we left to watch fireworks which was pretty cool for like the first 15 minutes.
After he invited me up for Netflix but I gently turned him down. I drove him home. At the end he asked me if we were going to make out sober (we made out drunk once before) but I also subtly turned him down again, promising the next date we would. HA! As if. If only he were hot :(
I was driving home after when I got a text from this attractive, but douchey seeming guy I’d met once before in person and matched with on Tinder. Blonde, taller, nice face. He was done work and wanted me to come over. I was in the area so I was like sure. I came over and saw this fucker for the first time in a year. He was really fucking baked, his eyes half open.
We went up to his room, I was really nervous. He was definitely hot enough to fuck but I’m usually not this slutty. This was legit the third time I’d ever seen him in person. Once I saw him working at a club I was attending so there’s that. That counts right? LOL.
Anyways he cut straight to making out once we were in his little dorm room. He even fingered me a little. Like whoa, nice to meet you. J’s room smelled entirely of cats so it was a nice contrast. He asked me to blow him but I turned him down because fuck that. I basically just met you. He smoked me out in his bathroom and I tripped out a little bit. We hooked up more, and after enough pressuring I agreed to fuck him. Missionary at first
He has a smallish dick. During sex, he asked me how I felt about butt stuff. I said “It’s not my thing”. He tried to stick it in my ass anyways, which was classy of him, so I freaked out a little. He said something like “whoops sorry didn’t mean to do that.” As if I believed that.
I recoiled and pushed him down on the bed, so I was on top. I grabbed his face, made out with him then bit his lip hard. He looked extremely pained after. It was awesome. I said “whoops, sorry didn’t mean to do that.” Cause I’m fucking insane and passive aggressive.
He really took control, which I wasn’t used to. It wasn’t bad. He kept asking me how he was doing. I was nice about it. Honestly I mostly did it out of curiosity. We watched TV after and cuddled but it felt so empty and pointless that I felt really awkward cuddling him. We all know this was just about sex. I gave him a back scratch and he reciprocated. I tried to make conversation a bit but he was being a bit lame and stoned.
I gave him an excuse to leave because I felt kind of fucked about the whole thing. HA! So I did. He walked me out and asked me to text him when I got home safe. I didn’t. I did however, text guy number 1. I drove home blasting music and reflecting on the day. I don’t usually drive stoned so that was weird.
It’s interesting – there was a line in the movie My Idiot Brother where Elizabeth Banks says “Every guy I meet is either a dick or a loser.” Which rings true for me right now. If only I could have someone with the personality of the first guy, but the looks of the second. Is that so much to ask?! Fuck!
It also made me reflect. How you can feel so emotionally connected to someone but without physical attraction it’s unfortunately not good for a relationship. At the same time, I feel fulfilled. I got my emotional hit and my physical one. Now I just need someone to fit the whole package so it won’t be so slutty.
Hope this was interesting to read somewhat!!